Contradiction

It is a contradiction ... I do it, I don't like it, but still I do it!The world is a lonely place ... and to solace a lonely self, the world is not enough.It goes in circles ... I seek new path, none better than the others.I know the path is wrong, yet I try it, and I try it again just to be sure,and then I try it again ... may be it was right!With a heart full of remorse, I conclude it was wrong...Yet I try again ... this time again an old and abandoned path...I know the right path deep in my heart, but the gates are closed.I cannot open the door, alas.Back again, to the wrong path, try again...Always the foolish optimist.